Turning my frown upside down...

I have been avoiding blogging lately. Most of you know I was VERY sick a few months ago and spent 11 days in the hospital. I have recently found out that I have Crohn's disease and was having a hard time dealing with everything. I didn't want to complain or do the whole "why me" and make everyone feel sorry for me. I know that things could always be worse, and it has just taken me a little while to adjust to everything. I still like to pretend I'm back to normal, but then it becomes very apparent that I am not. I have to take medicine every day, which some days work and some days not. I have to watch everything I eat, I have a lot longer lists of things I can't eat than can. I also have to go to the doctor every month for blood work and to adjust my medication until I get the disease under control. It's just very difficult to be positive when in so much pain and having a disease that makes your life so difficult. My goal the rest of the year is not to be admitted into the hospital again. I wanted to thank everyone for all the thoughts and prayers. The flowers, cards, and gifts really did brighten my day. I also wanted all my friends and family to try to have patients with me until I get this disease under control. I know I have canceled plans, and not been able to do things I normally could. Trust me I would much rather be hanging out than at home sick. It's just not something that I can take a pill and feel better in an hour. Normally when I get sick, it's for at least 4 hours, but can be for days. It just makes me feel awful to have to change plans or cancel. Hopefully when I go to the doctor's on Wednesday I can get a new medicine to help to control the "flair ups."